RIP Alexander

Alexander passed away. I'm so sad. I haven't stopped crying. He never got to go outside, much less leave his crib. His short life was filled with procedures, boredom and pain. I know he's in a better place. He has no pain and is with God surrounded by love which he didn't have here. I know I should be comforted, but I'm still so sad. I don't know why he had to endure what he did, but his presence in this world affected me greatly. He'll always have a special place in my heart.

Goodbye Baby Liana

Goodbye Liana

Another hard day in the NICU. B&D’s crib mate, opposite side of Alexander, Liana passed away today. It was so sudden and so sad. There was some consolation she was surrounded by family but I still wanted to wrap my arms around her mom who was understandably sobbing. She’d been there for 70+ days. Never got to go outside, probably never left her bed. When we first saw her, she was in the ‘going home crib’, but she took a turn for the worse over the weekend. It’s so shocking to have her suddenly gone. So sad, I’m still reeling.